I've made no secret that I've found the last year challenging - my modelling mojo seems to have left the building and despite trying various things, it's not come back.
Then I read this interesting article:
Brain fog: how trauma, uncertainty and isolation have affected our minds and memory
As I read it, the problem is that our brains demand stimulation, a survival mechanism from the days we were dodging dinosaurs.
The problem at the moment is lack of stimulus. I'm not going anywhere, other than the same old walking routes. A year without shows means a year without much inspiration. I know there are magazines and YouTube, but it's not the same as seeing stuff for real. That's where I get my rush of enthusiasm from.
Knowing all this isn't much help of course as there is nothing much I can do about it at the moment. Still, at least there is a reason.